Christina's Journal

itallbreaksdown @ 2009-04-25T00:04:00

2009-04-25T04:04:58Z

wow i just now realized how incriminating all those albums of pics are on facebook LOL.
i can never get my sister pissed at me lol

itallbreaksdown @ 2009-02-28T21:48:00

2009-03-01T02:49:52Z

i got one of those headaches i get when i sleep in, but i think its dehydration.
like when i sleep in i also dont drink any water, and every time i have school or work i drink water
soooo idk what it is

but im tireddd
and i saw fired up, it did not fire me up.

itallbreaksdown @ 2009-02-21T15:14:00

2009-02-21T20:14:31Z

oh shit, free pancake day is in 3 days.
yesssssss
and i dont even work that day :D

itallbreaksdown @ 2009-02-20T18:24:00

2009-02-21T07:05:56Z

yeahhhh boiiiiiii
idk i just felt like saying that
i forgot about TI's road to redemption and from g's to gents season 2

harvest moon on the ds is sstill awesome.
but the new one kinda sucks.

im already sick of my hair, but people are still noticing it.
and to make it worse, i saw robin today and kinda wanted to tell him i copied off of him, but i didnt want him to get pissed + hate me again, so i didnt.
also he called me piper, like more than one time. idk why, but fuck her anyways.
also i already want to cut it, and its only been 1 month instead of 3.

im really tired as i always have been
working at 5am is really the killer.
because i can never take a nap and cant usually make up that sleep.
and that sleep is key to my success.
if i dont have it, im a bitch to my mom, and i dont do my work as well.
and i dont feel like doing my schoolwork at all
and this went on for an entire semester.

thats why im trying to fix it now.

i still have a library book that was due in september,
but its cool, 5 months isnt that long!

but yeah, this semester = osm
i love my classes, i love having free time

itallbreaksdown @ 2009-02-19T13:16:00

2009-02-19T18:18:02Z

sweeet, life is so goooood.

i just got a free itunes copy of nick and norahs infinite playlist from a 1 dollar rental!
the red box is osm.

itallbreaksdown @ 2009-02-16T18:14:00

2009-02-16T23:15:34Z

again, i am boosted because i will finally get my 2007 tax refund, which will be about $600
and then 2008 will probz be more because i made like 2.5 times more money!

ps- studded belts really fuck up furniture
i was noticing the chair i usually sit in is jacked up.

itallbreaksdown @ 2009-02-14T08:50:00

2009-02-14T13:53:29Z

im so boosted!
kimya dawson is playing 3 shows in march.
dc, philly, and brooklyn!
yay we are one of them!

melissa you have to come down here!

itallbreaksdown @ 2009-02-13T07:49:00

2009-02-13T12:52:19Z

yeah so last week i was writing in here saying how it was weird that both of my parents cars were gone.
well my dad was spying on my step mom!
his words.
and i asked him where he was going and he was like nowhere.
he wants me to watch her today.

i feel weird right now. not really because of that, but like maybe from all of the tylenol sinus and congestion i've been taking.
and i just slept for like 9 hours, and i kinda wanna go back to sleep, but i shouldnt.

itallbreaksdown @ 2009-02-12T15:22:00

2009-02-12T20:23:37Z

the only problem with my blood work was that my good cholesterol was too low
lol! i have the opposite of everyone else.
he just said to exercise more
i think ill try to fit that in
but since its not the bad cholesterol, im not too worried.

but shiiiit, i am tired.

edit: also theres a dog in the neighborhood with the same voice as my dog who died almost two years ago, every time i hear it i think its her. and then it makes me sad.

itallbreaksdown @ 2009-02-11T17:08:00

2009-02-11T22:09:38Z

this is my first st. valentine's day with someone to share it with :)

and i will soon be out of debt, with thanks to my parents.
im not even in serious trouble and they are already bailing me out.
shiit.

itallbreaksdown @ 2009-02-07T19:22:00

2009-02-08T00:22:44Z

i just deleted 88 pages of emails from my inbox.

edit: i wish my sister wasnt having a sleepover tonight
and i dont know where my parents are, but both of their cars are gone.. which is strangeee.

itallbreaksdown @ 2009-02-07T08:30:00

2009-02-07T13:31:06Z

its so awesome staying up for 23 hours in a row and then only sleeping for 3! WOOOO
especially when you werent even partying or anything good.
rly, you guys should try it.

itallbreaksdown @ 2009-02-05T10:45:00

2009-02-05T15:52:06Z

I just want to let you guys know that ONE OF MY FAMILY MEMBERS SIGNED THE DECLARATION OF INDEPENDENCE!!!!

it might not be true. but my dad said he was related to us. and the countries of origin seem to line up. like sweden and england.

but its cool because my moms side has native american blood.
im just so american.

also this would prove my idea of mortons originally being jewish wrong.
because this dude was so christian.

itallbreaksdown @ 2009-02-04T20:47:00

2009-02-05T01:49:21Z

omg i just heard this part of my brothers conversation

"what if you had nine tvs in your room and you were watching nine different animes"
"and your mom walks in and is like what the fuck?!"

LOL

my family is weird.

itallbreaksdown @ 2009-02-04T20:09:00

2009-02-05T01:10:37Z

this semester i want to get enough sleep.
i feel like thats the biggest hinderance in me doing my school work and reading.

aka i need a new job.

im tryin to make other changes too, but we'll see.

stolen from rachel

2009-02-03T14:29:13Z

Explain your current relationship situation.
it's goooood.

Name a lyric from the last song you listened to:
Oh bring me sweet dreams tonight
And help me be good tomorrow

What are you doing after this?
shower, get ready for work.

Where did you get the shirt you are wearing?
hoodie- h&m, wife beater- target

Are you wearing underwear right now?
always.

What is one thing you would love to happen tomorrow?
everything to be perfect.

Would your parents be mad if you came home smashed?
lol yes, but they would be asleep by the time i came home, so its cool.

Is there a guy/girl that knows everything or mostly every thing about you?
ryan

How often do you hold back from saying what you are thinking?
hah always. my thoughts like staying where they come from.

Is something bothering you?
me being a dummy.

Has anyone ever told you that you have pretty eyes?
yes.

Is it hard leaving people behind?
i've never really done it, its been done to me.

What are you excited for?
actually liking my classes and feeling ambitious to do well.

At the moment are you more warm or cold?
im under blankies, so yesss.

What was the last thing you spent your money on?
books, too much food.

Is there one song that reminds you of the whole summer?
paper planes

If the year consisted of only one season, which would you choose?
autumn

Do you hate being alone?
for a long time, like over night, i freak out a little.

Last non-alcoholic beverage consumed?
coke :)

Do you currently have a hickey?
gross

Think back to the last person of the opposite sex you held hands with, would you kiss them?
yesssss :)

Are you drifting away from any friends?
yeah, most of them.

Do you sleep with or without clothes?
with. except at ryans i sleep in my underwear.

Has anyone ever cheated on you? Do you think they regret it?
i highly doubt that he has.

Tell me what's on your mind?
not wanting to go to work, wishing i was at dennys getting free food, wishing i didnt have hw the first day.

What do you do when you have a bad day?
fight with people i love or "love"

Have you heard a song that reminds you of someone today?
no its 9am, i just woke up.

If someone is doing something that upsets you, do you tell them?
sometimes i confront them online, or i just dont do anything.

If the last person you kissed, saw you kissing someone else, would they be mad?
lol yess

Have you ever hated yourself?
lots.

Have you ever thought you were too good?
no

Who was the last person you took a photo with?
ryan?

Have you ever liked someone older than you?
always.

Last time you had pizza?
pineapple express party

Name something that made you smile today?
nothing, its 9am!

How many people are you texting?
zero

Do you know anyone who is pregnant?
no

have you ever spent the night with your girlfriend/boyfriend:
yes

Have you ever taken someone back after they hurt you?
ive never broken up wth anyone

What is something you disliked about your day?:
well if i go for yesterday, my sociology teacher is grosss and made us sit in a semi circle because her ass couldnt stand up to teach

Would you ever live with anyone on your top friends?
yes, my number one <3
and two, and i already live with nine.

Are you a jealous person?
yes

Last time someone made you feel bad?
idk i got pissed last night

If someone liked you would you want them to tell you?
sure, usually the ones who did i was not interested in.

Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
yeah

itallbreaksdown @ 2009-02-02T23:05:00

2009-02-03T04:07:48Z

im so cold and mad.

i hate my sociology teacher.
and i was planning on dropping from the second i saw her ugly face
so i didnt pay attention in class at all
and i might not be able to switch

but in better news, my books were not nearly as expensive as they were last semester
and since i have in county tuition this semester, it is overall much less expensive
which will be helpful if i fail

and my 1 credit class is never going to meet, we are just teaching ourselves, which kinda pisses me off.
and since i have all of the materials i might as well drop the class if im going to just teach myself
really what is the point in a 1 credit class if not for the learning?

itallbreaksdown @ 2009-02-01T18:40:00

2009-02-01T23:48:12Z

i hate my mother so much.
i feel really bad about it because she raised me and stuff, but i cant help it.
and also because she gives me a lot of money and pays for my stuff all of the time.

but jesus i can not stand that woman.
and i feel like i write about it a lot on here.

but im just so angry every time i'm around her.

and lately i haven't been in the best of moods as it is.

i just want to go to sleep
but i made such a big deal about being home for the superbowl
and they made me food

i want to scream. and rant, but screaming is easier and doesnt waste your time.

and tomorrow is my first day of classes.
im nervous, and i dont know why, because i wasnt nervous at all last semester.
also having mon/wed classes makes me uncomfortable.
ugh.

itallbreaksdown @ 2009-01-31T11:25:00

2009-01-31T17:25:04Z

yay i just found out my credit limit was increased by $500!
no way am i paying it off anytime soon :)

itallbreaksdown @ 2009-01-31T01:01:00

2009-01-31T06:03:17Z

it is so awesome to go 4+ days practically being a zombie,
so fucking tired + a headache
time goes by pretty easily in that state.

i cant wait for schoool to start, hcc should have started last week
but then again, everyone else is jealous, so its cool.

itallbreaksdown @ 2009-01-27T09:23:00

2009-01-27T14:24:49Z

boo the kiddies have no school and i'm supposed to drive in the snow :(
this is not just flurries!

and yesterday i lost a 200$ savings bond!
my dad just said easy come, easy go.

i hate sleeping in.

itallbreaksdown @ 2009-01-26T13:29:00

2009-01-26T18:34:15Z

so i cleaned some of my room
while listening to metro station :)
and worked 5-10
so i basically worked for 8 hours (including room cleanin) ! lol

i dont hate my hair so much now that i used the better straightener, which is worse for my hair
i need to look into the ones chelsea wrote down for me
which are Metropolis, T2, Chi and one other.

but im hungry and tired.
pretty much everything is good.

ive been feeling more anxious about things lately i think
like today it was only two people on the floor at work during "blackout"
and thinking about it i was stressing, but it ended up not being that bad.
and when they asked me to cover shifts at wheaton i was worried like i dont know anyone there and shit, but im doing it anyways because i need money really bad.
or i will because i didnt have any other hours this week.
and i gave the ones this evening away.

oh yeah, and i lost my debit card, fuck.
i hope i find it somewhere :(

has everyone seen my hair?

EDIT:
i found my debit card,
then got myself 62 dollars deeper into debt, sweet right?

i also dont want to go back to school
and im scared and hope it doesnt snow tomorrow.

my faucet is still leaking, constantly.

itallbreaksdown @ 2009-01-21T21:17:00

2009-01-22T02:19:26Z

my hair looks good so far
but then again, for 140, it better.
also my dad actually said my hair looks good, and hes never said that before.

i need to get into the habit of turning off my computer, im afraid its going to crash again or something
and also at that, i should get an external harddrive and back up my shit, not that i have anything important or anything.

i still love circus.

itallbreaksdown @ 2009-01-18T12:08:00

2009-01-18T17:16:40Z

the "cancer" on my legs that i had in high school has been back for a while.

its getting bad, it hurts consistently when i first stand up after sleeping/laying down
and you can visibly see lumps on my shins, like through my jeans.
its so weird and scary because its the kind of thing that is only caused by something else.
i think i know what it may be from, but i cant be sure.

and since my insurance is an HMO, its shitty.
i have to wait months just to go to the doctors because of a mess up on their end.

but other than that
my break has been pretty good.
it went really fast,
i think because i still work a lot, and that passes a lot of time.
and when youre happy time doesnt move slow.

i also decided that i believe i am allergic to alcohol
and maybe this time i really mean it when i say i wont do it, at least as much.
but i can never be sure.

i hate uncertainty.
and i hate how so many diseases are so similar.
so instead of finding the one thing that is the root of everything, some people just think they have everything.
and those people sometimes become hypochondriacs and then no one wants to be around them.
i guess thats not such a common thing, but i know one person like that.
i dont know what its going to take to get them to change.

and that also scares me,
because i dont want to be that person
but i could be, and im trying to do what i can to not
and to not complain
but sometimes you just have to
and when you are lucky enough to have someone to talk to, all of the time, life is a lot better.
im glad i do.

im getting my hair done on wednesday, and i really hope i actually like it.
because it goes back and forth with my haircuts

and it is kind of cold in my house.

2008 survey stolen from Filipe

2009-01-18T17:08:22Z

1. What did you do in 2008 that you've never done before?
bought a car
bought a bedroom set from ikea
enrolled in college
went to see most of my favorite bands
got a boyfriend
slept all night on new years eve

2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
nah, i dont do resoloutions.
i would just be setting myself up for dissapointment, in myself.
so no thank you.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
nah

4. Did anyone close to you die?
nope

5. What country did you visit?
usa

6. What would you like to have in 2009 that you lacked in 2008?
more money, more education, more stability.
and i believe i will achieve the second two if everything goes to plan.

7. What dates from 2008 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
august 22 <3, the day me and ryan started dating.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
all of the things i never did before

9. What was your biggest failure?
I don't feel like such a failure this year, surprisingly!

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
yeah plenty of illness, hangovers, migraines, extreme fatigue, you know.

11. What was the best thing you bought?
almost everything i ever buy is the best thing ever.
but idk, my car.

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
britney spears

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
not britney spears!

14. Where did most of your money go?
car, food, clothes.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
all those shows.

16. What songs will always remind you of 2008?
DANCE. idk rly.

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? - happier
ii. thinner or fatter? - lolz, fatter thanks to the nuvaring.
iii. richer or poorer? - poorer

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
saving money maybe, and sleeping, always.

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
hatin. lolololol. jk.

20. How will you be spending Christmas?
this year? probably the same way i did last year.

21. Did you fall in love in 2008?
yessss

22. How many one-night stands?
none

23. What was your favorite TV program?
intervention, its always sunny until the 4th season aired.

24. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
uhh just some customers.

25. What was the best book you read?
idk

26. What was your greatest musical discovery?
lol mickey avalon i guess since i discovered him and his entire cd is on my top 25 most played

27. What did you want and got?
everything in my "what did you do in 1008 that you never done before"
and just lots of clothes and junk food

28. What was your favorite film of this year?
pineapple express, duh.
maaaaybe towelhead or slumdog millionaire.

29. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
turned 19, went to cheeburger and pf changs with each parent and with ryan both times.

30. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
idk about immeasurably, like what Filipe said, winning the lottery.
but measurably- definitely getting good grades and not being overwhelmed at all/

31. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2008?
skinny jeans, but not as tight as i wore in high school i guess, lots of shirt layering, like two shirts atleast at all times.

32. What kept you sane?
ryan

33. Who did you miss?
my peeps who went to college.

34. Who was the best new person you met?
ryan

35. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2008
im not sure.